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You never miss someone that you pushed away until they decide they want to be gone
then you second guess, feeling that sudden unexpected pain, wondering
"is this for the best?"
then reflect
what was it driving that wedge
what drove you over that edge
making you walk away further...and further
"it's not about you"
you scream..."it's about me" on a sob
I lost myself within you! don't you see?!?!
I can't exist within your magnetic pull, slyly manipulative
I can't help but be confused, you claim innocence...so
I projected all of these things on myself?
I acted unaided? all alone?
I must be crazy...surely crazy
for if they said "it wasn't me"
surely they cannot be telling an untruth!
not knowing what to feel, what to do
part pain, part joy
I will still "Bless the Lord, oh my soul"

Beyond it all...

Beyond the deep words and heartfelt songs

Most of all it’s that I feel like I belong

With you

I feel like I can be me

I feel that there’s nothing that we can’t see

And conquer

You aren’t the greatest and I’m not the latest

Thing out there

But we most certainly make strong contenders

With the friendship most will never have, we make a love that lasts

Enviable I’ve said, but I can say it again

Our love makes others envy, even in fighting you can see love in me

And in you, adoration, admiration, and hunger, it’s palpable

Of our feelings there can be no doubt, and what we say is true

For you there’s only me and only me for you.

Happiness Series Poem #1

When unhappy, focusing inside, I cannot change
I've discovered a way to guarantee joy complete
I smile, a big smile, especially when I don't feel it
And internally, it seems to me, it gets right down in my spirit
My soul is lifted, my body relaxed
So much PEACE I feel
From the top of my head to the tips of my toes
No longer does it seem to matter anymore...whatever it was...

untitled short...

In the depths of a mind unexplored, lies the secrets of a heart untouched. Relative innocence within the walls of feigned wisdom give evidence to a lost identity. To find what's not lost is a futile mission, Self discovery is a falsehood, you've only to shed the masks you chose...